Constant war between productivity and creativity. Space and confinement. Exploring concepts and rigid systems. There is something deep within us, me, that knows that there is an eternal fount of love. Deep love. Not Hollywood or Human. I know the sorceries and darkness of the conspiratorial leaders that be, I know the theories of the … Continue reading Dreaming & Machining
No Title
Words fail. Here we go anyway… You could say everything in the world correctly and perfectly but it wouldn’t matter. Words don’t do anything. They paint pictures. Mental pictures, and these mental pictures land where they want to land because the landscape has been made ripe for them. Through experience, personal thought, a desire to … Continue reading No Title
Life Doesn’t Owe You Anything, But You Owe It Everything
I like the quote above. It encapsulates the antithesis of the victim mentality, but it also puts life in perspective. Human beings are not the masters of this universe. Even government, religion, and big business are humbled by the mysteries and elements of the universe. Daily life can feel insignificant: buying houses, paying bills, working, … Continue reading Life Doesn’t Owe You Anything, But You Owe It Everything
2023 Dump
“PRINCIPLED MAN” I feel like I have seen the great men and the terrible men in history as principled. They have a firm set of beliefs that they place above everything else. This belief set, whether good or bad, is truly rooted in how devoted these men are and the level of action they take … Continue reading 2023 Dump
Corporate Psychopathy
I have noticed a trend with people in positions of power. They have the ability to disregard empathy and turn on a coldness that gets the job done. In emergency situations this is necessary. But in everyday life, this ability is closely tied to legal or HR policies that are usually tone deaf to normal … Continue reading Corporate Psychopathy
The Shaman
CHAPTER I Bipolar Disorder. The polarity of ecstasy and depression, of no fear and grandiosity versus intense fear and shame. A personal heaven and a personal hell. There are a variety of manic and depressive experiences. Though there is a theme of overwhelming confidence, creativity, meaning, and spiritual experience. A theme of self-shame, self-hatred, belittlement, … Continue reading The Shaman
Culture
The older I get the more I view culture as a hamster wheel. When I was young, older people weren’t popular or interesting because they were not up to date on media and trends. This is a part of being a child, you identify with your peers and their collective “uniqueness” to carve a place … Continue reading Culture
Responsibility
There is a theme among the everyday citizen. “They should fix this.” They as in the authority, the government, I mean, we pay taxes, shouldn’t this be their problem? The thing that needed fixing on this particular night was school shootings. My coworker argued, “it’s not guns that kill kids, it’s people.” I agreed with … Continue reading Responsibility
Apathy
The apathy and fear are back again. The feeling of powerlessness, and the fear of making the wrong decision. I’m not happy with my work life or the town I live in. I feel restless and bored at the same time. I feel lost and instead of grabbing freedom I use rational to say I … Continue reading Apathy
Freedom Manifesto
CHAPTER I We are in an interesting point of history. We have turned from the barbarism of human nature, where we were controlled by violent desires. And are now in the civilized age, where we are controlled by manipulation of desire. The story of man is both our external story on earth and our journey … Continue reading Freedom Manifesto
St. Jimmy the Brainless 